Reconciliation with Christ

Sometimes this is found: a person makes efforts, tries to fulfill Christian deeds, thinks that he is already moving, but in reality - he has not yet moved. How to understand this phenomenon? What is the reason? To figure out, we listen to the apostle Paul: so we are the messengers on behalf of Christ, and as if God himself exhortes through us, we ask for Christ on behalf of Christ: reconcile with God (2 Cor. 5, 20) What does this call of the Apostle mean - reconcile with God? Are we really in enmity with him? But which of the believing people dares to go against God? So am I in the world with Christ? Maybe the apostle Paul does not turn to me? Maybe this call is addressed to the Gentiles or obvious villains? Then I can be calm? But something still hurts my conscience ... Let"s try to understand this issue with the help of a real book